A really strong consciousness can hold anything. That’s good, because there is a lot to hold. Every day we are exposed to others’ suffering, and certainly most days we have some of our own.
One particularly painful form that suffering can take in the psyche is the beast. The beast is a response to pain and frustration that feels too much. It is hateful. It is destructive; it could annihilate the whole planet just as warm-up. What the rage wants most is to destroy the source of frustration. To stop the pain.
Not surprisingly, one of the feelings that comprise the beast is the feeling, “I can’t stand it!” Which is why the beast lashes out, sometimes in tragic ways.
The beast can stay hidden for years, only to pop up unexpectedly. One of the reasons we don’t see it more often is that as it starts to rise, we suppress it. We anaesthetize it with a drug or another of our addictions.
It’s hard to face the beast. We feel shame about the beast, and the beast often has a lot of shame in it.
In order to not be devoured by the beast when it arises, your awareness must be strong. Usually this takes years of deep inner work. It comes with learning to see the contents in your mind are just contents, not all of you. There is something separate from the contents, and that something is what is watching. The Witness. Awareness.
You need that bit of distance so you can hold the feelings rather than become the feelings. If you become the feelings, you may not be able to control yourself.
Remember, the beast is simply a part of you that cannot cope. It cannot tolerate one more moment of suffering.
Fortunately, you are larger than the beast. As long as you don’t blend with the feelings, something else is possible.
You can let the beast rage inside. It can have a gigantic temper tantrum without destroying anything, because you do not become the beast. Instead you hold the feelings with interest and compassion. Often, rather quickly, the beast calms down.
Attempting to slay the beast will just bring more hatred, but it is possible to tame the beast.
It is part of deep therapeutic work and also part of spiritual work. Before we open out into that infinite deep peace, parts of our ego structure must be held a certain way so that they eventually learn to let go.
If this sort of thing interests you, look around my site to learn about my work. I also expect I’ll be doing more blogging about deep transformative work.